Hi ShyPoetGirl, when you say you can't get therapy or meds is money/insurance an issue? There are sliding scale clinics that can work with you on prices. I have insurance now but when I didn't my place costed 10 dollars a visit and even in really bad times when I didn't have that, they worked with me.

I didn't have anywhere to go either, I still barely do but now I go to a group 2 times a week offered at the clinic I get my meds and therapy from. A therapist runs it, and we just talk about stuff like friends would then talk about serious stuff and offer advice if wanted, do arts and crafts. Could you see if there's any groups you could get to near you? It's nice to get out of the house and make friends and kinda feel like you belong.

I hope my answers don't offend you, you sound really upset. I just wish you the best and hope things look up for you.