How am I playing games? Army guy said he is genuine but I don't see that right now and he will probably blame me for staying with my boyfriend which isn't any of his biz if I do or don't. My bf being the genuine one, why do I have to keep waiting for us to get some kind of an apt and get married? He said he wants to be able to move up to at least store assistant at the gas station so he can at least have more money, should have had more money long ago!

I am trying to get my life together looking for a 2nd job so I can move to keep my sanity as my 1st job isn't giving me enough hours to move. I haven't spoken to Army guy lately and not sure what to do if he contacts me when he comes back to AZ for the holidays but my boyfriend wants to set his *** straight even more. I told my bf all of these goals, still isn't enough money for us why do I have to keep doing all the damn work?!? I told bf that I want to be with him but I don't know. Other people have told me he doesn't seem to be going anywhere or moving fast enough.

I asked bf are you content with our 9 yrs of still not being married? He said no I want to marry you. He has a ****ing computer issue staying on it all hours of the night and that is still a bother in our relationship even though he doesn't have a computer right now. If he got a computer and I am on a back burner again, then I am leaving I have told him that in the past.

I strayed because I want something more I want a ****ing life! I want to be happy, come and go as I please when going out don't have to answer to anyone nor follow someone else's rules. I still need to talk to my boyfriend more.....