I spent decades working two and three jobs just so I wasn't alone with myself. Even now that I am not working I will do anything to distract myself from being alone with myself. When I don't have a distraction I feel fear mostly than anxiety than sometimes I start to get lost in my head. If I don't have something to focus on I feel like I am floating and not fixed. It's hard to describe. I am now trying to be good to me and my body, eating better and not pushing my body and mind beyond reason. It's a change but we do feel better, less frantic. Take care of yourself.