I'm sorry to say that I can't reply to the pm's been sent to me... I have no words left in my brain.
Thank you all for caring about me!

I've received several hurtful words this weeks... I feel like crap... useless... treated like a little kid... seen as a disorder and not as ME. People who should know better have hurt me the most. Then on top of it- I've got a wound on my cornea... Can't cry... hurts like grrrrr... Did that last night more than ever... tears tears tears.... pain pain pain...
I wish I never had gotten my diagnosis- with all these ignorante people around me....!!!!!!!!!!!!! People who think they know me better than I know myself. Mistreated, misjudged... hurt with a sharp sword- stabbed right into my heart.

(((((((((((( Julia ))))))))))))) I'm so sorry Julia... about you being in the same boat! I love you, my precious friend! I will always love you! Keep fighting, hon! You can do it!