Yeah, I'm there right now and I hate it! Even though I feel (at the moment) that my extreme feelings are justified, I'm also aware that mania is heightening things to a whole new level. I know this logically, but emotionally....... that's another story. It's amazing how you can rationalize unrational behavior when you're in the moment. I have a fear of getting STUCK in mania sometimes when it gets too bad. The one before this one I didn't think I'd come back from. I had about a 2 second Memory. Talking about random things that didn't fit into the conversation, forgetting what was said after 2 seconds. My kids thought I was on drugs (of course I wasn't! ) and that made me paranoid that people would think that. ...it was awful! I'm about used to the signs and symptoms now. Helps a little just to know what is happening because part of your mind can be trained to recognize that it's the illness and remind you that it will pass and help you to maintain a certain degree of control after awhile.