I wrote here a few months back, and with some moral support from you guys, I thought I can really leave my past behind. I thought I can start anew... But I recently saw the guy who I insulted in the hallways. He stopped right in his tracks and walked the other way, a very fast U-turn if you ask me. I expected this as a normal result from my berating but.... it's just painful to see...

This isn't the first time he avoided me. There were several other incidents where we were both invited to someone's birthday party, he abruptly bailed probably because he found out I was going. I know he doesn't want to hear my apology and does not want anything to do with me. I know I'm extremely hated... I even stopped my contacts with my friends for a year, so they can forget about me. I went to a new school, and hoped that they will be gone when I go back.

I feel like I'm starting to go back into depression. I can't focus in class because I'm worried about seeing him again...I'm worried that he might be telling other people about all those bad things that did...
I just don't know...