I thought the lunch with Army guy was gonna be it thanks for lunch, good luck in the Army, etc. Well, yea, giving bf Army guy's number would attract drama but he asked for it so I gave it to him. He wanted to let him know to leave me alone that I am off the market. I told my boyfriend I am sorry he knows I almost slept with him. Job wise, he's only been at the new job for 3 months and me almost 8 months. BF told me we were gonna get an apt in 2010 I think but the economy went to the trash.

I thought something like this would never happen where I would stray. The 08 economy didn't help as "some of us" can agree that finding work is still super hard! If my bf cheated on me, I shouldn't be surprised. No, not happy with my life still trying to put my life back together so I can leave. My bf is willing to work with me about what happen and told me he will NOT lose to Army guy; he is still hurt and wants to beat Army guy's ***. I told him I was a willing participant in it too. Army guy brought out a lot of things about me brought out old feelings and new feelings for him.

I did tell Army guy I wish people would butt out of my biz so what if we are not married yet etc! I still want a break from boyfriend which I told him. I told him about that addiction that it makes him look like a loser ask women but other men would agree too. He got mad when I said that I said but it is true! It's a freaking problem!

So yea, told bf how long is it gonna take to leave the nest so we can move on? Yea, I get so ****ing depressed every time I see someone with their own place but I am still working towards that goal for myself.