I want someone to talk to me and support me because I have no one to turn too. Earlier I SI'd and I'm just needing a shoulder to lean on and a hug or two because I'm feeling lonely and worthless. I've done a terrible thing, I can just imagine how my mother would put it,

"Why would you do this?"
"Stop being so selfish, had I raised you wrong?"
"Was everything I taught, nothing?"
"You don't know how much stress you put on me, can you not be disappointing to this family?"

I wish I can just crawl up in bed and never wake up, or just die...