Since I told my T about my SIing, she asks every single time if I have done any more and asks to see them. Usually I let her see. For me, I kind of like it, because it keeps me in check, but at the same time I sometimes wish it could go back to being only my secret. Some times she tries to focus on the emotions that were going on when I do SI, but I end up mumbling around it, because I just don't want to know what I was feeling, that's the major reason I SI. I have lied to her before when she asked but she knew right away, so that didn't work. I have been able to control myself better but only because I have to get surgery done, so I am going to be around doctors for a while.

My family doesn't know that I still do, because when I told them about it, I thought I had stopped for good. That was 3 years ago and it has gotten worse, but they don't know a thing. Even my T thinks that I am getting better because I haven't SI'd in a while, but actually, I am doing a lot worse mentally, I'm just better at hiding from everyone now.