((Jane)), I am sorry you are struggling with this challenge, I experience it myself and it is hard to know what to do with it. I was responding to a thread Mowtown posted and talked about how "alone" I was "for real" in my deposition. I have experienced many trauma's in my life where I was alone too.

It is important to remember that this "feeling alone" is something that challenges everyone on some level, it is just very magnified with the PTSD. When one takes the time to really talk and listen to different people, they often talk about being alone. So, it isn't really not normal to have this challenge and rarely talk about it.

It is good though that you are talking about it here, because others here do understand this challenge very intimately and while you do feel alone with this, you are not really out of the "norm". The "truth" is that all human beings have this challenge, even ones that may appear to have it all also deal with this challenge.

We are all working through this very big challenged that is labeled PTSD, the truth is, we are not alone with this challenge and we all need to be grateful that we can get help and support with this too, it must have been horrible before it was recognized.

It really does take time to work through this challenge and finally become "part of" the many who deal with this sense of "being alone" somehow. The "healing" is finally realizing this fact and making enough gains so that you can reach out to others in a new way, a way of being more a "part of" then you realize too. So much to learn about just being "human" and how this is the way all human beings are challenged and what each person does to try to "not" feel alone. Often if you really look at it, some people really buy into silly things like having to have some kind of "designer" thing to gain some kind of "approval" or sense of "worthiness" somehow. All that really is saying is how that person needs to be a part of something they have determined as a sign of worthiness and it can be so damn silly because of how these people "fall for the way whatever it is is marketed". Freedom, is sitting on that beach and just being a part of that part of nature that no one can really duplicate. Freedom is finally stepping back from the insanity of all the things people do to belong that take up so much precious time from just sitting on a beach and "experiencing life while you are living it". That "is" a pretty picture, and you were in it, touching the shores and hearing the water as it crept up on the beach taking some of it away and yet also pushing some of it up there too. It is important you remember to embrace that because so many others don't get that chance.

We don't have to really "own" anything you know, we can still enjoy so much that is simply there "to" enjoy.

(((Caring Hugs))))
OE