Johnny, I hope you can take a moment to breathe and think through the numbers. You can probably handle this yourself. It may affect your lunch money for a time but It wont change your retirement plans or even your lifestyle. You still have a good job and a good address and a car. You wont be impoverished if you stop spending.

I will say It again. I worry about you burning your candle at both ends. Caffeine and sleep deprivation could be behind these manic symptoms. PTSD avoids sleep to avoid dreams--this is GABA depletion--any prolonged stress depletes GABA and everything else geta thrown off. Add overtraining and caffeine and concentrated carbohydrate and you can induce all kinda of crazy symptoms.

It would be foolish and irresponsible to tell you you definitely have PTSD. You could have bipolar, in which case the GABA that works for me could send you up or down. It is responsible and common sense to say you cant abuse caffeine to go without sleep without mucking up your entire neuroendocrine balance. You cant get a good dx muddied up like that.

PTSD does mean someone has to thank you for your sacrificial service with kaching. A lot of pseudo-ptsd is about the shirking of responsibility for actions with bad consequences and a demand for cosmic reparations. You have too much Integrity If character for that. Don't injure yourself in a moment of panic.