After getting up to 3-4 mg a day then some additional doses I took to knock me out, it definitely got toxic. I was constantly suicidal for several years. That strong desire has ended since going off. I was forced off in the beginning by a really sadistic doctor who did not know me from Adam, he just saw me in a hospital and stopped the order for it before he ever laid eyes on me. I could have had a stroke from the high blood pressure that ensued, I was getting closely monitored for that while I was there. Needless to say we had words!

I continued on the withdrawal after I had survived 4 days off. It is amazing to me that some people can go off it and have no side effects like I have had, and still have. The feelings of terror in the beginning were really scary.