(((Bluegrey)))

It is not stupid at all to want people to be kind to you. It is part of what we need to heal, I think, and something that I have struggled to find. My therapist is very kind, and that has helped a lot.

It is incredibly painful when those that we hoped would be able to be there for us, those close to us, abandon us in our time of greatest need. I have had that with friends and family and so I can relate to how hard it is for you. I am sorry that you also have to experience it.

I have lived in the UK for 10 years, my son was born there! The NHS surely has it's ups and downs right? It seems so strange that you don't have an email contact for the therapist though, and such a pity. Could you possibly call and request a letter outlining your diagnosis? That is if it is still important for you to know?

You sound like such a lovely person through your posts, I hope that you can find some space to be a little kind to yourself in the absence of others being there to be kind to you.

Sending kind caring thoughts