Thank you for empathising with me. I know I am being a whiney child at time, and feel like a complainer, I try not to.

Such a shame that the picture didn't truly portray the gorgeous colours of the spot I was in, my phone needs replacing, I dropped it in the ocean briefly a while back and the camera is a bit rubbish now!

Yes, I am aware that I am not unique in experiencing loneliness....it is part of the human condition I guess from time to time. I guess what I was referring to was that loneliness itself seems to be a trigger for me to historical memories and feelings that I don't really want to feel and experience. It seems to trigger deeper pain than that of being alone itself.

OE, this concept..... "The "healing" is finally realizing this fact and making enough gains so that you can reach out to others in a new way, a way of being more a "part of" then you realize too. So much to learn about just being "human" and how this is the way all human beings are challenged and what each person does to try to "not" feel alone." .....confused me a little. Are you saying I am not good at belonging? And being human because of that? I guess that is how I read it and I suppose it is true sometimes, often, I don't really belong.

I am not good at expressing myself clearly sometimes, I guess.

Take care all