Thanks for that; I like it; I'm just having trouble accepting it as truth. It would very much feel like a confession for me. I've seen the reaction of "normal" women to mental health, and believe me, it wasn't pretty. Long story short, 99% of them (arbitrary figure, but was a lot) that replied (dating site with "normal" women) made it pretty clear they would have nothing to do with a guy who had MH issues. Some of them were disgustingly rude and so ignorant.