Hi,

I feel incredibly anxious today. I know I have a tough decision to make, and I am unsure if it will be beneficial for me. I have waited for this to have a chance to continue, for so long. Yet, the thought of it makes me feel nauseated. On the one hand, it could work out differently and for the best. However, based on past experience, I can only believe it will not. I usually can trust my instincts quite well. Today though, not so much.

I have a connection that seems at this point to be unwavering - at what extent though, I am still unsure. I can only wait it out to see what will come of it, but I feel myself wondering how the other person feels, forgetting again about my own conflicted emotions.

If it works out, I could be happier and more blessed than I have ever been. However, if it fails again, I feel I would be shattered beyond repair. It is not just myself that is involved, either. That is a critical factor. I had just begun to fully feel myself returning, and now in place of me, is this snake-like feeling of total confusion and anxiety.

I am not sure what the answer is, but any suggestions cannot hurt.

Many thanks,
Niceguy