I'm much wiser than what all the adults try to give me credit for. I wanted my wisdom for good and help others of what I know. The wiser option is shutting up and not telling them and let them figure it out and wait it out.

So far it's helped keep me sane. It's wiser not to tell an ignorant man or woman what's not working. I learned very very early on, people don't understand ignorance. They really don't know that they don't know, they put out all this crap and try to show arrogance behind it and the fact people admire people like that in my generation. It's sickening, I don't find any attraction to it. I find intelligence gratitude and just someone who cares. I don't trust people, I am a very old soul.

I am traumatized, the fact knowing what lies ahead what it feels like to die. Almost feeling it again, 3 times in my life.

I highly doubt someone comes to me, like the way I'd love them to do, because I always meet angry hateful people. Who only care about pushing everyone away. My friends value me and I have lots of quality friendships more than most people in the world, because I don't drop people only if they want me gone or push me away.

I don't date, because it's like inviting someone to be uber god I control your life, it's not loving or fun. It's insane and imprisoning.

I made this to describe mentally people see I'm ok on the outside, deep down, I feel like I'm starving all the time, homeless and trapped imprisoned like in a concentration camp of life. Where everyone is suffering equally in their own situations, but instead of helping people go crazy and hurt each other.

I've been very desensitized I have friends who are in my position, but let their madness control them and take it out on others. My best friend told me, he was going to rape his ex. He described feelings and difficult times I've lived through before as well, but I chose to overcome that.

I chose to not die, not hurt others, let others hurt me, not because I'm weak, just to show their ways are not helping them or anyone else.

I learned this at 8 years old, when I was beaten by 15 people and thrown over a fence to be shot by a man who was drunk at school. In a town in the middle of nowhere, I didn't hate these people like I said, I felt terrible, because they were feds lies about me through the faculty and their parents from my neighbors covering up my first best friends who raped me and beat me a lot.

I had to be humble and choose to act a certain way, because I wanted to show people I'm living life fuller because I chose not to care about the civilities the silly things people worry about day to day. I learned that you can't live like that, you can't you'll be old and miserable or die young.

I am an old soul, because everyone will die, but it's how you want to live your life means everything. I chose to show people this in a very real sense in me being alive. I shown people this is what happens when you hurt people, the consequence is my existence the emotions the pain I deal with. The ignorance people have, I find it more deadly and mentally incapacitating that parents hide their children or teens from this or people like this. I met people like this, so I don't tell them much only things relevant to them. I won't tell them my life, because they don't need to know, but then again. I wish they did know how the world really is.

Since I was a boy I didn't had the rough dark side of the scary part of the world parents warn their children about. I wasn't just exposed a bit and I survived. I rode the wave and conquered it and throwing it back in people's faces that they need to know to be mindful of themselves or else you'll have more suicides more people like me.

The society we have the parents who hide their children from the world turn into nasty people. Morally they may not be bad people, but deep down they don't know what they are doing so they will push themselves on others and their ideals on others that are far from the truth. I can see in the near future what is happening now will get worse. I lived to keep people grounded or else everyone is lost mentally and the insanity of eradicating the different, the true weird people in the crowd of millions who say their "weird" too, but weird isn't unique, unique is rare, because unique is now the cultural norm and the children like me who have suffered a lot and are unique pleasant or not. If I'm not their unique I'm not good enough to live or be alive or have friends.

If you don't see this, you haven't lived long enough to see what "good" people can really do in terms of really horrible inhumane things.