I know that it's hard to bring up the past in your sessions with your therapist it took me awhile to actually start to talk about it, and just did 3 or 4 years ago and really started to work on it even though i've been suffering all together for 8 yrs. For me the reasons why I didn't bring up the abuse at 16 or the other 8 guys that either assaulted me, threatened me or harrassed me is because I didn't realize that it was wrong. When I started to get body memories all the time, and didn't know that they were actual body memories it scared me. Body memories are flashbacks, that's how i'd get flashbacks still do from time to time. But since I talked about it things did start to get easier.
The key is to talk.

The books that I was reffered to by my psychiatrist is called:

Body Remembers: The Psychophysiology of Trauma and Trauma Treatment
Author: Babette Rothschild

Trauma and Recovery: The Aftermath of Violence, from Domestic Abuse to Political Terror
Author: Judith Herman

You can get these at your local bookstore or order them online. I bought one and ordered one... from chapters.ca but i'm also in Canada.

Hope these help. I know it's tough but you'll be able to get where I am right now, it just takes time.

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