Thanks, everyone who responded.

I'm also wondering whether it's normal (or if not normal, at least something that happens at all) to feel really grossed out with yourself and/or your body after masturbating? After the orgasm comes I have maybe a few seconds of feeling nice, and then on good days I start feeling neutral/disconnected from my body, and on bad ones I feel upset and disgusted. It seems like something is wrong with me but I don't know what it is or why.