One thing I do is go ahead & do what I am fearful of. For ex., I don't like to drive downtown so I took a class where I had to drive there every week. I was in a bit of a panic, but on the way home I felt such a great sense of accomplishment.

I've also had a group of people over for dinner when I felt completely incompetent. I just put one foot in front of the other & planned how to cook the meal, how to get the house ready & talked myself out of obssessing that I had to be perfect. I reminded myself that if you get a couple glasses of wine in people they will be focussed on visiting with each other & not scrutinize my cooking or hostessing abilities. Though I have to admit I was completely drained afterwards. I hope the experience will make it easier for me next time.

Right now I'm having difficulty going to see my internal med doc to check my thyroid & blood pressure. She put me on meds for both about 9 mos. ago & I was supposed to return in 3 mos. to get my levels checked. I keep making appts. & rescheduling them for later times. Now I'm scheduled in June. I'm just feeling really bad that I haven't lost a significant amount of weight since I saw her last. I know the weight is triggering the high blood pressure, but with the low thyroid I could have problems with losing weight so it doesn't make sense for me not to go, but I'm still balking. My pdoc hasd offered to come with me to help me get to the appt., but I hate to put her out for something I SHOULD be able to do, but for some reason can't.

So I've managed to do some things that were stumbling blocks for me, but I have many more to address!--Suzy