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Originally Posted by Scott900091
I plan on confronting her in our next session but I admit I'm scared she well dump me as her client. I have a deep fear of rejection and people not liking me. Maybe I have AvPD?
This mental health clinic I'm going to is being payed for by DSHS and I'm not working so I can't afford a fully trained therapist. Getting a job and keeping it is part of my treatment plan.
What I didn't mention was all 3 therapists I've seen at this place are trainees trying to get their masters and it seems there's a high turnover rate.
In the beginning she was very nice but in our third session I got emotional about my father passing away and the last words he said to me was "Your not married yet" and it really bothers me that at my age I'm still single and have never been married. Anyway just for a moment I looked up and caught her giving me a dirty look. So its possible she mistakenly thought I was directing this towards her. Socializing more and getting into a relationship is also part of my personalized treatment plan.
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This really sounds like you're having difficulty separating your stuff from hers. It sounds like you are attributing motives and behaviours to her that are less about what she is actually saying and more about your own anxieties and apprehensions about how she and perhaps others see you.
To me, it sounds like a huge stretch to imagine that she would hear you talk about your dad and his feelings about you not being married and take from this that you are hitting on her. This sounds like a very big distortion. I doubt she was giving you a "dirty" look. Maybe she looked upset because you were describing something very upsetting and was empathizing with you.
Check in with her sometimes. Ask what she's thinking. Don't let your inner dialogue go uninterrupted.