I wasn't more suicidal on it than I am off of it. As far as I'm concerned it was holding me together and I never should have been forced off. My brain rot is far worse off of it. Everything is.

But as ForeverLonelyGirl said, I could never risk going back on and being forced off again.

I've read the Ashton Manual. Too bad the nurse that forced me off it never did.

It's been the worst thing I've ever been through where no one died.