I just got back from another awful session.... I told T I wished I'd never said anything.... T helped me see this isn't my fault, any of it.... But I struggle to speak about it at any length.... T said I have a right not to talk about it.... But I also have a right to talk about it.... "he" has taken away my right to talk about it.... I've kept running that statement over and over.... If I don't talk about it at length..... Than he still holds power over me... .