Since my depression and mental health has gotten worse in the last few years i barely recognise my self.

1 i have no motivation ( dont even open my letters
2 i am in physical pain on a daily basis and dont know why since i am afraid to go to the doctors appiontment
3 i dont eat healthy or exercise and have gained so much weight
4 some days i dont even brush my haie.
5 i hate my self and would rather be dead than be me.

I really want to change but need baby steps. I can not take giant leaps.

I want to change all aspects of my life particuarly want to find out what is wrong with me physically and to loose a lot of weight. Dont mind loosing weight slowly as long as i do loose some.

I know its a lot to ask but can any one give me some simple and easily achievable small goals to start with or any helpful advice

I could eventually move on to bigger goals, but am easily overwhelmed and when anxiety kicks in i give up and retreat to my blanket and comfort food.

Please help me if you can or if you have been where i am and managed to pull your self out of it.

Thank you so much for reading this