The depression has kiked into high gear from my biopolar and i'm struggling to fight it. I don't feel love(d). I know people do. My nieces and nephews are the only ones who make me feel needed and I don't get to see them really.

I get on my xbox every day and check my friends list; 3 ppl on my friends list. Only my nephew is on and just seeing him online watching youtube or Netflix makes me feel like he is with me then I don't feel alone anymore. Me and him are tight but he's just a kid. Today the social network is down on xbox and since I can't see who is online, i'm just freaking out. It's like since I can't see the status then i'm lost and totally alone.