Thanks everyone. I appreciate the advice. I left out a lot of what was said to me, even being told it would have been easier if I had died rather than him having to leave me. Constantly told I was crazy on a daily basis.

Even at an event was told, filter yourself, wait no just don't talk.

TO make matters worse, just recently I lost my job which seems like it was over personality differences. I was called in the office and told that it was ok for ppl to treat me like I didn't belong because that's just life and ppl make clicks... O.o

My nephew thinks im awesome, but it makes me more sad that I relate to a 13 year old more than people my own age.