I'm overwhelmed.

The one thing in my life that is destabilizing, is an unstable relationship with a T.

Nothing gets me like this. I was more desperate and frantic after my last T left than I was after a breakup of a three-year relationship.

I've been feeling pretty upset with my therapist about her way of treating me. I'm fine with T's having suggestions and advice, but being directed, confronted, and provided too much suggestion about how I probably think and feel is something I just don't like. Especially when those reflections are inaccurate, I start to feel unheard and then resentful. Or when the confrontation is about the wrong issue, I just feel a quiet rage which I then suppress. This has been building up for a while, and I can't tell if she's getting worse or I'm just losing tolerance for it, but I can't stand it anymore.

I told her about this last session, and I was really as open as I could be while maintaining at least some composure, and I still don't like the way she handled it. When I'm defensive, what I need is kindness more than anything else. And I feel like although we talked this issue out somewhat, I'm still not feeling connection or empathy from her. She suggested that we might consider a different therapist for me and it's.. terrifying.

I've been thinking about this non-stop, ruminating, I mean, seriously all the time. I see her tomorrow.

Has anyone ever left a T before? Am I alone here? Does this even sound salvageable?