Medication wasn't enough. Therapy hadn't been helpful. I just did my best to suffer through it all. This year conditions deteriorated to the point that I had to do something otherwise, with no doubt in my mind, I knew I would commit suicide (which at the time, and even now, is an outcome I am typically undisturbed by).

If you look at my post history you'll find a lot of information regarding how I've managed to become stable. In short, regular sleep, diet, daily exercise, and some supplements which help me manage my responses to stress without directly influencing my mood. It required a lifestyle change which started by denying bad habits that impeded building the ones I understood to now be necessary. That took time, but it's something medications could never make up for.