OMG you are so not a freak.....I am sure there are so many people on this site that do just what you do...it is just waiting it out to find them...lol....just a couple weeks ago, in one week, I found two posts of people doing what I do. not close to what I do, but exactly what I do....one of them was my deep dark secret that I wont even tell t about I am so embarrassed because I think it makes me a freak and here someone is brave enough to post about it...I told them I loved them...lol...because I didn't feel like a freak anymore...you are so not alone!