Thanks Sabau2 and Bellaviolet. It's hard dealing with this. But i try my best to take ine day at a time. Plus i apperciate the few who show me friendship.Sabau2 i did get angry at that person and told them oh felt and then walked away before they had a chance to react to me. I did not want to hear what that jerk had to say.Bellaviolet i thought i am the only one that would not cry over a death. I'm afraid it might be the same when my mom dies. Because she is still mean. When her mom died. I did not shed a tear.I do cry sometimes when people die. But only when people who did not abuse me die. I thought badly of myself a bit when i felt numb about my dad and grandmother dying.