I hope soon someone can answer your questions better than I can. Musician huh, cool. I can't help but think that becomes an important part of your life, and I hope you love it. What others think? Everyone has an opinion, and of course they will not all be the same. If someone actually does not like you, and most people alive have one or more, it's their problem, not yours. Still I can understand being BP myself, this can make the thoughts hard on one self because I have also wondered such things. Be yourself, love yourself, take your medications, and know you are not alone, but you are also in a group of many good people here, and in the world. You're truly special sharing joy through your music, so again.