Hi thank you everyone least I know it's as normal as can be with this illness..

I only have my family Dr I can talk to him about anything he takes the extra time to listen carefully.. I am waiting for pysch there is a long waiting list in my city we have a shortage :/...

I am female , no not menopausal age, my cycles are like clockwork always have been lucky there but each mth never know how bad pms will get sometimes I am lucky but most times not more intense havoc emotions . .

I can't afford a psychologist or even a therapist right now and do need one badly... I also need to get on my meds.. I get panicked by the thought even. Last time I tapered up in crumbs practically with celexa till I was at 40 mg. I can't do that with Wellbutrin xl even though my dr has counselled me each time I have gone to see him why xl is better, smoother . I am looking forward to feeling better if I can only get past the wall to start it .

I guess I was so used to one or two emotion or non at all to have these intense emotions even though it's really only 2 still freaked me out..