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Originally Posted by Robot Jones
Why do I not feel human? Not really sure. I guess after awhile of being isolated and alone it starts to feel like you don't exist. People always looking at you like you're some type of monster. One event after another that your insides are just in a constant struggle until one day it just shuts itself down. One event too far that causes one to question their reality. Who they are. At least that is what I think is the reason.
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I know that. have lived alone for a long time. until last year I lived in a place far from other people to meet and I felt strange and unwelcome a lot. isolated and not human. because I wasn't even used to seeing anyone and when I did it was strange and I felt like they didn't even see me and I was always disappointed. it changed when I forced myself to go out more often. it was hard at first. I moved to another place in town where I was closer to other people and didn't need a long ride on public transport before I could talk to another human being. since then it got a lot better. just because I got used to it maybe and also because people got to know me better. but when I got depressed that feeling came back and again I forced myself to see people and it worked again. so I hope you can also make a change like this.