A problem I have consistently is that I get the feeling that I've cheated life, that I was born into a life that I didn't deserve. So many people could've been born into my shoes. People with determination, people with ambition, people with vision, people with talent, and so forth. Instead I'm me.

I cheated life, I got what I didn't D. I should have been born to scroungers, to vagabonds, to starving paupers in a far flung land, to parents who loathed me and were openly disgusted by my existence. Instead I was given so much and wasted it all, and I feel overwhelmingly guilty about squandering all of my potential.