I recently lost my mother to cancer 5 weeks ago. I was given the gift of being able to care for her until the end, and we were able to say everything we needed to.

However, and I know that grief is very hard, but I feel like I am drowning. I have other things to deal with, like chronic pain from my own fight with cancer, I have two girls (11 and 8), and my husband works overnights so not only do we not see each other often, I do the bulk of things around the house and with the kids.

I just...I can't. I feel like I am screaming and no one hears me. I have a therapist I see every week or so. I have a pdoc I will see for a med check at the end of the month. I want to crawl in a hole, I want to run away, I want to die, I want to sleep, I want to take drugs until I sleep for days.

How can I cope?