Sometimes I have these panic attacks where I get really dissociated and then I have this weird tactile hallucination thing, where it feels like I am being sexually penetrated. It's really scary and always comes with this overwhelming feeling of shame and worthlessness. I don't understand what it is that causes this. I don't have a history of sexual abuse (at least not one I remember), and none of my doctors seem to really understand what I'm talking about when I share this with them.
Has anyone else ever had a similar experience? Any ideas on what this could be?