Sorry but I am new.... I think you are over 21 and all that jazz. Sometimes hospitalization is used to get a person started on meds to level them out. Does your T believe in meds? Do you have anyone that you can talk to in real life? I am sorry that you are feeling so bad. Would you be able to talk to your doc/T about what is going on with you? No matter what your relationship is right now ... you should be able to call him/her.