EV, do you think it might be helpful to talk about what's going on for you right now that is fueling your suic. thoughts? I have found that talking about my pain and disappointments and frustrations helps.
If you seriously believe you are capable of hurting yourself, and you want to be in a safe place, can you talk to your t about admitting you? If you need urgent care, then yes, I think a hospital will 'hold' you until you feel safe enough.
I am truly sorry you are hurting so.
Take gentle care,