Hi

I have been lurking for a while now on this forum, and after a bit of a break down this week, thought it might help to share my story.

For as long as I can remember I have viewed the world as a big scary place, and have also run back to parents for help, guidance and approval. My dad and I have a particularly close relationship. I am a 28 year old female, and view my dad as my best friend. When I am feeling down because of work or relationships, he will go out of his way to make me happy, by taking me on a drive so I can cry and vent, or just sending me regular texts to see how I am. He is a very caring father and has been much more lenient and generous than any other parents I have seen or heard about. When I describe him to my therapist she wonders why I am making him seem like 'God' but the thing is, he is like God to me.

From a really early age I started to obsess over what life would be like without my dad around and how bad it would feel. How I wouldn't be able to function or continue working. When everything else is going to c*ap in my life, he is one of the few people who can give me hope, so I'm scared when he's not around, that hope will be gone.

I am also co-dependent on my best friend and boyfriend, which I know is unhealthy, but it's my relationship with my parents (mostly dad) which worry me the most. He said he felt the same about his dad when he was younger, and that he grew out of it and managed to stop worrying. But I can't see that happening with me.

I feel like such a freak because I worry about this almost on a daily basis now, and can bring myself to tears just at the thought of losing him.

Has anyone else got this problem? Thanks for reading