I second what kaliope and lilypup said. Use the hotlines. That is what they are there for. Write out a plan so that you know what to do. You can start with things that you can do on your own to distract yourself. The next step is where you can go to be around other people and do something, since you are safer if you are not alone. You don't have to tell them anything about why you are there or how you are feeling if you don't want to. Have a list of people that you can call and talk to just to talk. If that is enough, you don't have to tell them why. If that isn't enough, who can you call and ask them to sit with you or help you to get help? Also have a list of professional resources including your treatment team, crisis lines, emergency numbers - 911, etc. and use them if you feel it is what you need. There are times when it seems that going to the ER is what you have to do to be taken seriously. I do ER crisis assessments. We don't admit everyone. Some don't want or need to be admitted, but just need resources and reassurance. We are there for them as well as for the ones who are in imminent danger and the ones who are concerned that they need help and aren't getting it any other way but in the hospital. Do what you need to do to make sure that you are safe and getting better.