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Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse
I hope you're seeing a good psychiatrist and getting therapy at the very least.
I wish I could help you more, but maybe knowing you're not alone will make you feel a little better. I recently filed for disability because my last three jobs ended badly and I realized I can't work anymore, even when I'm stable and all is well. Too much anxiety and distress.
Your situation is different. You're in the middle of a longstanding depressive episode, which can be helped with treatment. It won't always be like this, and I bet you won't have to file for disability because you really are capable of holding down a job. If you weren't, you probably would have gone out on medical leave or quit (or been fired) by now.
Please, if you're not being treated for your depression, get help! And if you are, you need to see your doctor for an adjustment in your meds and perhaps some additional therapy, because no one should have to live the way you're living right now. Good luck.  |
Thanks you guys. I truly appreciate your help. It's nice to know you are out there. I actually quit my last job before this could happen. I am also a nurse and the cardiac floor was too much for me. I am now at a new less stressful job but the fact remains I am still a nurse and I have to take care of people. I get sick to my stomach thinking of going into work and having to help people when I can't even help myself.
My depressions can last up to a year or more. I am only at 4 months, I don't know how I am going to get through it.
My Pdoc who is also my therapist is adding med after med. I am now on 3 different mood stabilizers and a very low dose SSRI. I know she's a good doctor but I am starting to feel like giving up. I feel like they don't know anything about the brain and it's all trial and error while my life falls to pieces.
With all the mental health stigma in healthcare I think my boss would fire me if she thought I was mentally ill. She could find another reason for the books (like calling in sick too much). I don't know, I think I am going to loose everything and never be functional again.