For you, i wish you to be proud of your weirdness and send those that do not accept your weirdness to hell. But it is sometimes too hard to live in that way. So, it is perfectly legitimate for you to want to adapt your behavior to the mainstream. Maybe it is just a detail, for example I knew some girls that were marvelous but when they dated some guy their anxiety got too high. They called the guy too many times and we're super available. In that way, the guy got scared or unmotivated. It was a pity.