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BipolaRNurse · Oct 14, 2014, 07:47 PM

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Originally Posted by MujerTriste

Thanks you guys. I truly appreciate your help. It's nice to know you are out there. I actually quit my last job before this could happen. I am also a nurse and the cardiac floor was too much for me. I am now at a new less stressful job but the fact remains I am still a nurse and I have to take care of people. I get sick to my stomach thinking of going into work and having to help people when I can't even help myself.
My depressions can last up to a year or more. I am only at 4 months, I don't know how I am going to get through it.
My Pdoc who is also my therapist is adding med after med. I am now on 3 different mood stabilizers and a very low dose SSRI. I know she's a good doctor but I am starting to feel like giving up. I feel like they don't know anything about the brain and it's all trial and error while my life falls to pieces.
With all the mental health stigma in healthcare I think my boss would fire me if she thought I was mentally ill. She could find another reason for the books (like calling in sick too much). I don't know, I think I am going to loose everything and never be functional again.

I know that's a scary feeling. I feel the same way. I have a (very) part-time job as a writer for a nursing website, and the thought that I may never again be able to do much more than that is downright terrifying, especially seeing as how I'm the breadwinner.

There IS a lot of stigma surrounding mental health issues in the healthcare field. I've never understood that.....you'd think we'd be more compassionate towards people with MI, but we're worse than most.

I'm glad you're getting therapy and meds. My pdoc is my therapist as well.....kind of nice to have one-stop shopping in a sense. But I wonder if it isn't time for yours to consider hospitalization---as you know, sometimes it takes more than a med tweak or two to stabilize someone. I don't know how you feel about being admitted, but it's something to think about if something doesn't change for you soon.

If you don't mind my asking, what is your less-stressful nursing job? I never found mine.....might've lasted longer if I had.