I know that's a scary feeling. I feel the same way. I have a (very) part-time job as a writer for a nursing website, and the thought that I may never again be able to do much more than that is downright terrifying, especially seeing as how I'm the breadwinner.

There IS a lot of stigma surrounding mental health issues in the healthcare field. I've never understood that.....you'd think we'd be more compassionate towards people with MI, but we're worse than most.

I'm glad you're getting therapy and meds. My pdoc is my therapist as well.....kind of nice to have one-stop shopping in a sense. But I wonder if it isn't time for yours to consider hospitalization---as you know, sometimes it takes more than a med tweak or two to stabilize someone. I don't know how you feel about being admitted, but it's something to think about if something doesn't change for you soon.

If you don't mind my asking, what is your less-stressful nursing job? I never found mine.....might've lasted longer if I had.