I kinda know what you mean. After seeing my t for a few years, i told him to feel free to reschedule me if he had an emergency or whatever. The first time he did, or was it the second? - the deal was off! I felt horrible. and i was the one who thought i could handle it. I just could not. I know it doesnt MEAN anything - it just stirs up old feelings blah blah blah - but those old feelings are horrible and powerful. Like rebreaking an old bone break. Not that i ever broke a bone. But ykwim!