Yes Hankster, and I was having a hard enough time with the rescheduling but I knew I was the one that initiated the freedom for him and so I kept telling myself it was my choice.
Now having him forget me all together in regard to even telling me how to get to the doctor tomorrow to meet him is almost more then I can handle. Just knowing I never even crossed his mind when he had to be getting things ready to take the other people to this appointment and he never thought of me once. That has taken this to an entirely different level. Even with it, I know I can't change anything..... I need the slightest hope regardless of how much each let down hurts I guess.