That's okay. I don't know much about it, so anything is helpful.

My T is all into positive/optimism. She doesn't even like to use the word negative...lol.

She told me for my thoughts I'm supposed to acknowledge them, but not accept them or fight them. Similar to how you're supposed to handle intrusive thoughts when you meditate. She related it to the Chinese finger puzzle: the tube you stick your fingers in. The harder you try to pull your fingers out, the tighter the puzzle gets. But if you relax and slowly pull your fingers out, you will break free of it. Another example is the pink elephant. If someone tells you to not think about the pink elephant, all you do is think about it. It's because you're reminding yourself by telling yourself not to think about it.

I do understand this. But...it just seems so risky. It's difficult having the thoughts already. I've suffered from them daily for 18 years. I will try anything to reduce the intensity. But it seems almost impossible not to react to them.

And it's ironic you mentioned spirituality/religion. I assumed she is Christian for a few reasons, but with all the things she has been teaching me lately...it's just more proof. That's okay with me though. It's just kinda amusing to me.