I wrote on the depression forum how my depression has changed this is the last post from it from the end of the day.. Only thing good is now I am exhausted but will watch tv or listen to something to occupy my mind from my thoughts that tend to race or like right now just got stuck on repeating " tend to race , tend to race in my head

Just have to vent so it's out I am still f%*#*ing angry , raging inside... At the same time my heart hurts and I feel hopeless to fix any of it .. At least when my quote normal depression the constant void and not caring about anything, no energy to do anything flat out on my back with a few crying spells is familiar normal to me..

I don't even know who the hell I am right now or what do with rage and anger... Cause none of what I could do is productive it's so filled with hate of everything this rage. I feel like I could just explode