Hello. I will try to shorten the background first. When I was 16 I found out my mother had a son before me and was forced by her parents to put him up for adoption. Years passed, and finally we met. Since then we've been close on the phone and have seen each other a handful of times. Our mom passed away 7 years ago, that's the last time I saw him until this week. We finally decided it was time for another visit. He's fm Denver, and I live in FL. Over the years I've grown to love him dearly as the brother I always needed and wanted. Well, he just visited for almost a week. We were having the best time catching up, talking, growing our bond, etc. except 2 nights before he was to leave, around bed time, he started saying suggestive things and rubbing me. Once he started, he wouldn't stop, he just kept whispering stuff, and briskly tried to undress me, the whole time trying to kiss me, fondle me, and take off his pants. He was begging me to sleep with him and it almost happened. I just kept saying no, over and over and finally got loose and went to my room and locked it. The next day, he didn't say much about it and told me he had to cut the trip short.
I am so shocked and saddened. He actually almost had sex with me. I no longer have a brother in my eyes. The thing that bothers me is that he is known to everyone as a really kind and nice person with a big heart.
I am completely at a loss and feel such a huge void. I really needed him to be my big brother and be family. Most of my family is gone. I feel so alone and sad. Please help me if you have any wisdom.
Thank you.