Great session after all !

The fear of being better...another scary unknown. I understand that. And he let you know he's going to be there then, too, so it's ok to take your meds and feel better. He'll help you with that as you go; talking about the gray area with him might make it feel familiar and not so worrisome. He is a wonderful T and I'm so glad you have him!

It's interesting what he said about the idea of focusing intently on topics being scary. It is. I wonder if, now that he's acknowledged that, if it might be a bit easier for you from here on.

When you were driving to get there, and getting upset with the other drivers, did you feel like you had to hurry or he might not be there? (when you got there you said "you're still here"). I have similar thoughts.

I love your honesty in there! And his reassurances and his sense of humor!

Oh, gosh .. the end of the hour !!! I hate it. In fact, when I go in I feel like a countdown clock has begun... tick.. tick...tick.. toward the separation. Sometimes that makes it hard to focus. I've started sitting with my back to her clock so I can't see it but I can see my watch, her watch, and I can just 'feel' the time slipping away to the dreaded end. I don't know how to shut that out, deal with it.

You are doing so good, pinksoil ! I'm so glad for you.